Well, I haven't forgotten to write but its been a bit manic as the week has progressed for me; suddenly I find myself a bit overwhelmed with not having enough hours in the day! When I started this blog I didn't really intent on writing every day but I just found it came so easily; now I guess it's been a week full of errands, appointments and I have actually carved out time to finish my Loose Women's Mum Book yeah! :)
I will have my lovely boy at home for the next few weeks for half term and I have no doubt I will struggle with ways to keep him occupied! But on the up side the weathers going to be glorious this weekend and I am more than looking forward to a heat wave finally!
Throughout the time I'm planning on some BB Q's with copious amounts of wine sipping OK , maybe even a good guzzle or two; I better stock up :) Have you ever tried wines from Lyme Bay winery? They are super delicious and so very easy to drink; a dangerous side effect! I want also to get in the sunshine and plan to work at getting the garden veg and flower crops planted in- which is massive in itself as I have hard time reigning myself in!
Finishing of by again some more reading time notched out; found a very funny book THE BATTERSEA PARK ROAD TO ENLIGHTENMENT by Isobel Losada and I have to say it's witty and I'm thoughourly enjoying it so far. Interesting, what catches your eye when you try to make life changes and this book seems to hit close to home for me right now; with the new directions I'm looking to take in my own life.
Until next time, look for the sunshine!
Friday, 8 April 2011
Wednesday, 6 April 2011
Blood, Sweat, & Cheers
Looking back I have come to realize anything we accomplish or have takes some kind of mental decision and physical effort, furthering yourself along for what your about to attain; this can either have pleasant or disastrous long term effects on yourself and others.
Through course loads, workloads, becoming a kind of singleton or partner. Furthering to job opportunities and general daily life choices. All these require a combination of some type of either figurative or literal blood and sweat; with at the end of things allowing you to feel relief!
As I'm on my personal journey I try to look at what I'm cultivating. Can a lousy attitude give me only unhappily dire situations or relationships? I have found this to be fairly true! I know I can't be Ms. Super Bouncy Happy person all the time. I am a complicated human after all and being that "up" all the time would be just a bit too creepy to me. So how can I cultivate the opposite? I want to try and look beyond my emotions, find ways that keep me calm under pressures and just watch the raging ripples subside; reflecting back to me some smallest bit of peace around me.
After only a few short days of trying to adjust my general mindset I have found some glimmers of peace present itself in front if me, basically reflecting back what I have been sending out into the world. No longer do I want to live my life in ignorance; I have found that I need to work on being unaffected by the dirty, emotional, "slush" around me. I'm learning and continuing to grow in understanding to what makes me adept at becoming clear about what I'm looking for in my life; basking in the warm realization.
I wish to perceive more things in the daily world around me; looking only for the truth therefore to challenge the patterns of my own past making. Without really setting up a "pre plan" for once in my life, in order to achieve this feeling; I am instead, just doing and have already found some delightful gifts for myself in return. I hope I find many more things to cheer about!
Through course loads, workloads, becoming a kind of singleton or partner. Furthering to job opportunities and general daily life choices. All these require a combination of some type of either figurative or literal blood and sweat; with at the end of things allowing you to feel relief!
As I'm on my personal journey I try to look at what I'm cultivating. Can a lousy attitude give me only unhappily dire situations or relationships? I have found this to be fairly true! I know I can't be Ms. Super Bouncy Happy person all the time. I am a complicated human after all and being that "up" all the time would be just a bit too creepy to me. So how can I cultivate the opposite? I want to try and look beyond my emotions, find ways that keep me calm under pressures and just watch the raging ripples subside; reflecting back to me some smallest bit of peace around me.
After only a few short days of trying to adjust my general mindset I have found some glimmers of peace present itself in front if me, basically reflecting back what I have been sending out into the world. No longer do I want to live my life in ignorance; I have found that I need to work on being unaffected by the dirty, emotional, "slush" around me. I'm learning and continuing to grow in understanding to what makes me adept at becoming clear about what I'm looking for in my life; basking in the warm realization.
I wish to perceive more things in the daily world around me; looking only for the truth therefore to challenge the patterns of my own past making. Without really setting up a "pre plan" for once in my life, in order to achieve this feeling; I am instead, just doing and have already found some delightful gifts for myself in return. I hope I find many more things to cheer about!
Monday, 4 April 2011
Garbage Day!
I can tell when I'm on the right track because now that I have had time to make decisions to move forward in my life and have dipped my toes into a comfortable state of awareness; I get dumped on!
We all have it, the days where the alarm doesn't go off- for whatever mysterious reason, the hot water runs out of the shower while your still covered in shampoo, the toast gets burnt to a cinder, the coffee tastes like mud from wonky kettle water, and you miss your transportation by the barest of seconds and you have to walk it. Undoubtedly halfway to your destination nature decides to chuck it down and rain on you, making you so glad you tried to do "something" with your hair that day; delightful.
Take for example today, it's my garbage day and pick up around my end of town. As I was walking home after early morning errand running; I was feeling pretty good about my recent choices of having an open heart and leaving junk in the past. From out of nowhere I literally get bags of garbage slammed into my side, tripping over and nearly dropping my shopping! Now, the immature me of the past would have given the pitiful garbage collector an earful and I would have made sure he heard my wrath; but I don't know today seemed different and all I did was look at the unexpectedness of it all, shake my head in disbelief then casually walked on towards home.
Back home as I was unloading my groceries I felt this warmth come over me and I had to smile to myself; it seems I had passed some sort of cosmic test and I felt deeply loved.
I believe that when your trying to make good in your life your bound to be tested, sometimes to your limits, to see if you stay on track and today, at least, I seemed to stay on course for my life- which felt pretty good!
Take a look at your day and if that friend or colleague is dumping on you about their problems or finding ways to tear you down; ask them why? Why do others take such pleasure in bringing other people down? I have found it's because they can not cope and want to feel like they are not the only one feeling dumped on! At these instances you can do several things, have a verbal altercation, walk away in frustration, tell them to stop, or my favorite is to break into a smile, hand them a coffee and confuse the hell outta them. They will learn their lessons eventually and in the meantime you are still on track to having a better day and peace within your own life.
So to everyone who gets dumped on, quite literally at times, I share a coffee with you and hope you continue to have a bright day, cheers. :)
We all have it, the days where the alarm doesn't go off- for whatever mysterious reason, the hot water runs out of the shower while your still covered in shampoo, the toast gets burnt to a cinder, the coffee tastes like mud from wonky kettle water, and you miss your transportation by the barest of seconds and you have to walk it. Undoubtedly halfway to your destination nature decides to chuck it down and rain on you, making you so glad you tried to do "something" with your hair that day; delightful.
Take for example today, it's my garbage day and pick up around my end of town. As I was walking home after early morning errand running; I was feeling pretty good about my recent choices of having an open heart and leaving junk in the past. From out of nowhere I literally get bags of garbage slammed into my side, tripping over and nearly dropping my shopping! Now, the immature me of the past would have given the pitiful garbage collector an earful and I would have made sure he heard my wrath; but I don't know today seemed different and all I did was look at the unexpectedness of it all, shake my head in disbelief then casually walked on towards home.
Back home as I was unloading my groceries I felt this warmth come over me and I had to smile to myself; it seems I had passed some sort of cosmic test and I felt deeply loved.
I believe that when your trying to make good in your life your bound to be tested, sometimes to your limits, to see if you stay on track and today, at least, I seemed to stay on course for my life- which felt pretty good!
Take a look at your day and if that friend or colleague is dumping on you about their problems or finding ways to tear you down; ask them why? Why do others take such pleasure in bringing other people down? I have found it's because they can not cope and want to feel like they are not the only one feeling dumped on! At these instances you can do several things, have a verbal altercation, walk away in frustration, tell them to stop, or my favorite is to break into a smile, hand them a coffee and confuse the hell outta them. They will learn their lessons eventually and in the meantime you are still on track to having a better day and peace within your own life.
So to everyone who gets dumped on, quite literally at times, I share a coffee with you and hope you continue to have a bright day, cheers. :)
Sunday, 3 April 2011
Genetic Spirit
Strong, commanding, survivalist, superwomen; where I am today, it's Mothers day. I've been thinking the past several days of the women in my life, both past and present, that have surrounded me and shaped me along my way. Each have remarkable, tragic stories and lessons to learn from. Deep down, I highly respect each person for what they have gone through and their strengths that have carried them on. Oddly enough, the one quality I admire most from these women are the same qualities that have given each woman some negativity in my eyes. Do genetics play a part; will these same qualities be my downfall, from having a lasting, peaceful, happiness in my life?
I, myself, am a Mother. I openly admit that I am far from the perfect Mum. There are times when I have felt that I have lost my mind and total sanity! I have numerous tears and battled depressions along the way so far. Thinking I did not have the strength to move forward, and yet I have dusted myself off many times and carried on. My oldest child has had to grow through many mistakes and my immaturity, my middle child has had to bear the hardships of my failings in my first marriage and my youngest has, so far, had to deal with the fallout of my past decisions. Someday I do hope all my children will look upon me and know that through it all, I have only ever worried and loved each one of them. I have never felt happier then when seeing their smiles warm across me like blazing sunshine.
As you commemorate this day, as you see fit, I have realized that no matter what your background, circumstances or upbringing it seems that deep down we crave a mother figure. Emotionally or figuratively it pulses with each breath.
"The sweetest sounds to mortals given are heard in the words Mother, Home, and Heaven."
~William Goldsmith Brown
I, myself, am a Mother. I openly admit that I am far from the perfect Mum. There are times when I have felt that I have lost my mind and total sanity! I have numerous tears and battled depressions along the way so far. Thinking I did not have the strength to move forward, and yet I have dusted myself off many times and carried on. My oldest child has had to grow through many mistakes and my immaturity, my middle child has had to bear the hardships of my failings in my first marriage and my youngest has, so far, had to deal with the fallout of my past decisions. Someday I do hope all my children will look upon me and know that through it all, I have only ever worried and loved each one of them. I have never felt happier then when seeing their smiles warm across me like blazing sunshine.
As you commemorate this day, as you see fit, I have realized that no matter what your background, circumstances or upbringing it seems that deep down we crave a mother figure. Emotionally or figuratively it pulses with each breath.
"The sweetest sounds to mortals given are heard in the words Mother, Home, and Heaven."
~William Goldsmith Brown
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